Here the end of 2022. I have made leaps and bounds as it is called adulting. I went to New York to meet my friends and to help them spread the Gospel. It was was once in a lifetime trip. It truly opened my eyes how powerful the Word of GOD is and also the power of God. I went through a journey of forgiveness in 2021 to now. I am for sure not the same person. My yahoo unread messages was more than 7000’s and I said “you know what this has to change.” God is a God of order and discpline. I started to hit delete to every message and I had messages as far back as 2013. Can you imagine that? The weight that I have carried with all the things that I have destroyed in my life, that God is creating, and what God had completely taken away for great reason. I was carrying the guilt, of a life that I was not happy. A past, where I hurt people and they hurt me. Those 7000 unread messages are symbol how messy and clutter life can get. How unorthodox and plaguing you can let horrible things build. I really can’t believe what my life looks now. I have stability, I have sense of adventure, I do have sense of trust now, even though I might have loved someone but to realize that love was not enough. Or to realize you just want to hurt someone back because of the emotional trauma they left behind. Or to realize that souls ties are a real thing. Life is worth living through Jesus Christ. It is the only way it can lead you to have stability, confidence in a Kingdom of heaven, that my tears, my sadness is worth it. To the hope of eternal life is the best thing that has happen to me. And this physical body is daunting. It is not limitless. Unlike our souls that are limitless. Lord, the blood you shed on that cross is all worth it. Let GOD change your life. But have a soft heart so HE can mold you. HIS purpose is far greater more beautiful then I can imagine.
When you start living your life for God there is such a joy it is undescribable. God gives you the gift of teaching, prophesizing, pastoring, gift of tongues and many more that encompass that gambit. All given talent praise and Thank God for giving it you. We live this world itching for answers, trying to complain what is my purpose. When God tells you to pick up your mat and go. It is time to do the work of the Lord and the Great commission. GOD ‘s prupose for you goes hand and hand with the Great commission. But, you have continuously abide in HIM and wear your armor. The Word is sharper then a two edge sword it cuts bone and marrow to transcend through you.(Hebrews 4:12). I am turning 40 next year and it feels as though I am finally found. After 5 years of being in the Faith. For so long, I have been a dependent, a disaster, a meance to myself because I trusted in man. I let my feelings control me, I let them completely obliteratee into a shrunken space. And then came JESUS. HE destroyed every disgusting dark space in me. It was the most hard for my flesh but the Holy Spirit had to make way. What have you done for the kingdom lately? Pick up your cross and go. Evangelise to your friend, neighbor, streets, stranger. The greatest treasure is to be shared by everyone. My painting aspect is because of GOD. The prayer warrior on me is because of GOD. My Jesus can do everything. If you need any prayer let me know in the comment section. Please support my Etsy Rain4yh.
Have you ever entered a Renaissance phase in your life? Mine is right now thanks to my Jesus. I am grateful that I still have hobbies, still have friends who care about me, and the love of my family. I am rich beyond all means.I hope one day you say thank you Lord I know that was you many times over. I hope you can experience the Lord’s love over and over again. I hope all your sorrows, past, can just be that, the past. Jesus Christ can do all these things. Please if you have not searched for my Etsy account please do. It is Rain4yh. GOD bless. The picture above is my recent painting. Next I will paint a sunset version.
In our suffering we must preservere. We have short time here and just passing by. Our destination is heaven. Live a life worth living. As we face now Monkey pox, famine, inflation, most of the world is growing cold, bitter, and have no ethical barrier. What are you doing today for the Kingdom? We need now more then ever to follow the narrow path. Our character in suffering is to praise Jesus. This will lead to being more like him. Look at what HE did in the Cross. Are you looking for him everyday? Are you opening up your Bible? Are you with a body of believers? As our time comes close to an end. The Lord will start Revelation and will not hold back since the church will be gone. Don’t get left behind get some Jesus in your life. Pray for your departure, pray for your family to be saved, pray for all those who are suffering and not alive in Jesus.
I love hearing rain in my window Payne it relaxes me right away. It also reminds me of being cleansed in rain and when you get baptized. The Bible says we will have flowing waters from us when we receive the Holy Spirit. I’m paraphrasing of course John 7:38. I also have good memories in rain. I remember one day at Walt Disney World when it thunderstorm and got on Splash mountain I did not care I was having fun. Or when you cuddle with your significant other and enjoy hot tea. How it trickles down the window Payne also. Reminds me of how God hears our tears because he does see our pain. I wish people everywhere will know of Jesus. HIS love is immense and vast it will not ever run out. It is so soothing. I hope you find Jesus Christ soon. May you live a life worthy for HIM to come back .
I can say now I’m in God’s will not under my own. I was such a miserable person not living a Christ centered life. I was caught under darkness and whenever things did not go as I planned I would let my whole life crumble. I did not have support, the unconditional love of Jesus Christ or the friends that have the same mentality as me. I signed up today to get involved more with my church and to go on Missions. I use to be so afraid of roadblocks, of pain, but now I know God transforms it. I have to keep on praying, keep on this path. I want nothing to be in the Lord’s presence. I don’t ever want to go back to when I was dead with sin. I felt I was going nowhere. I owe it to myself and to my son to live happy lives. Even though death, jealousy, sexual immorality, even friendships are going to turn on you it’s biblical. Have to stay firm in the Word only thing that can keep you steady. Satan will always try to derail. But when you have God’s purpose you will arrive to your destiny. It is a guaranteed. Hebrews, Corinthians, Romans, Jude, Revelation amongst my favorites. So to my first mission wherever the Lord sends me. Even if it comes a little later at least I’m in the right path. Get your life right with Jesus weather you will read the Bible, get baptized
JESUS is coming means no more suffering, no more, no more heart take, and no more death. Are you not elated?
To go to the father’s arms and to be carried by him. At last to be in his presence bowing to him and saying thank you God. Thank you my Lord. Please give Jesus a chance. Eternal life is waiting.
I made it through Covid 19 and thanks to my Jesus. It was an interesting experience per day. The first three days was the worst then everything else became a mind game. Constantly, waiting to have breathing promblems. I did not loose taste or smell. And I was thankful to have my mom’s cooking. I would not have it any other way. I did have a big issue with one of my sister’s not reaching out to me at least to say hello. Till this day, I don’t believe it is ok. When we do have the time face to face we will see. I stop being bothered by it. And forgive her for it. If it would have been back ten years ago, I would have .add a big deal. But now, I let the Lord handle it and do speak up to make my voice heard. To be honest when I do remember about it, it just does not sit with me right. I don’t see her cause when we do have family occasions it is mostly on the surface. I dislike people like that so much. Facade people, maybe cause at one point I was once and I allowed so much bull crap to go along with it. Until now I can process a lot of my trauma and painful events. When in my twenties all my emotions controlled my destiny. Felt like my ship always needed repair. Guess who was reckoning it on it’s own. The stuff you realize when you are about to turn 40 next year. Where are you in your walk with Jesus? Have you been introduced to Jesus? Do you know you can have eternal life through him? If Ezekiel 38 comes to pass and Israel is left to be outed out. Guess what is next? The Antichrist. Do you really want to not know about what Jesus can do in your life? The magnitude of healing and to feel finally whole. I am not saying it is an easy life. A lot pain, hard work, sacrifice and you might die a very ugly way but you live eternally. Forever and ever more with the Love of Jesus. Confess your sins to Jesus, 🙏 pray, fast, and fellowship. Saints we are about to go to our eternal home. Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done. Repent! For the Kingdom is at hand.
How is that I have been so blind ? I have been knowing some of my friends some since I was 17. I have given my energy, time, to some people. And to those who have actually gone through me: and have seen the good, the bad , and the ugly. And still they stayed. I’m surprised I have kept friendships for so long. I grew up in a dysfunctional family. Two parents, who said they loved each other but, would go to blows with each other. Yet they decided to stay together. In my early twenties, I could not identify my hurt, my pain, and imposed on those who loved me back. But only those who really loved me and wanted to get to know me deeper. All I knew was dysfunction and I wanted chaos. All I seek now is peace in my life. For the well being of my son. I had an opportunity to be happy and sabotaged every time. It’s been terribly hard for me to come to this point. I’m glad it is better then when I’m sixty and I have apologized for trail of hurt I left. I am so happy the friends I do have. I care highly, so highly. I cherish them. I have finally learned how to feel agape. Night thoughts.
I had a dream on December 24 evening of 2021…in this dream I was on a very high mountain in a school, in it was R. Peck, we were learning about angels, then on his paper he was drawing the angel Raphael apparently he is the angel of healing and getting rid of demons. Only shows up in the Torah. I looked up in it was a constellation facing like a pyramid, a less than sign, I was looking up constellations that emulate that and it was Draco the dragon that shines brightest in July. Also, Raphael is the angel that blows the trumpet the day of resurrection. The Catholics commerate him on October 24 which is close to somebody’s bday I use to really love and care about. All I can think of is pray, pray, pray.
bririas 