Here the end of 2022. I have made leaps and bounds as it is called adulting. I went to New York to meet my friends and to help them spread the Gospel. It was was once in a lifetime trip. It truly opened my eyes how powerful the Word of GOD is and also the power of God. I went through a journey of forgiveness in 2021 to now. I am for sure not the same person. My yahoo unread messages was more than 7000’s and I said “you know what this has to change.” God is a God of order and discpline. I started to hit delete to every message and I had messages as far back as 2013. Can you imagine that? The weight that I have carried with all the things that I have destroyed in my life, that God is creating, and what God had completely taken away for great reason. I was carrying the guilt, of a life that I was not happy. A past, where I hurt people and they hurt me. Those 7000 unread messages are symbol how messy and clutter life can get. How unorthodox and plaguing you can let horrible things build. I really can’t believe what my life looks now. I have stability, I have sense of adventure, I do have sense of trust now, even though I might have loved someone but to realize that love was not enough. Or to realize you just want to hurt someone back because of the emotional trauma they left behind. Or to realize that souls ties are a real thing. Life is worth living through Jesus Christ. It is the only way it can lead you to have stability, confidence in a Kingdom of heaven, that my tears, my sadness is worth it. To the hope of eternal life is the best thing that has happen to me. And this physical body is daunting. It is not limitless. Unlike our souls that are limitless. Lord, the blood you shed on that cross is all worth it. Let GOD change your life. But have a soft heart so HE can mold you. HIS purpose is far greater more beautiful then I can imagine.
I am writing to those who have not healed yet from the past. From all the times you ever where not sure and someone made it worse, for when you came from a place from hurt and trust nobody, or a place where you are willing to hurt someone emotionally for all the things you have experienced. You carry the weight for a super very long time and then it comes where you have to face them. It is probably the worst of reality anyone can take since you are changing in milliseconds, in R.E.M movement that type of fast. All the sudden guess what saying sorry does not look so bad, saying I love you for one last time , saying I am going to let go because it is not serving me in my life anymore, to all the times my hands got sweaty because I was afraid of the person’s reaction. When you realize nobody owns you anything not even a sorry in return. It is the greatest liberation. All you can do is right your wrongs. Some people will trigger you till the day you die. And that is ok. As long as you have boundaries. Boundaries are essential. I would not be able to write this unless I had Jesus in my life. Jesus has not ever failed me. Ever, everytime I was left with a broke heart Jesus picked me back up. Everytime someone betrayed my friendship. Everytime I would say yes to the same person but the result was the same, Jesus was there. Jesus renews!
But first, we must spread the Gospel to all four corners of the world. We must commit to share Jesus at any cost other wise Jesus will turn away from us and say “I did not know you depart from me.” Share love, share the light, share the 🧂. How are we to keep this gift that keep on giving. My Lord, my shield, my buckler, my all. Love the Lord 🙏 with all your might, soul, Holy Spirit, body. Guess what Jesus Christ can. Depressed, Jesus Christ can. Anxious Jesus Christ can. Scared Jesus Christ can. Only Jesus can turn a misfortune into a blessing. Stay away from all sin it leads to death.
When you start living your life for God there is such a joy it is undescribable. God gives you the gift of teaching, prophesizing, pastoring, gift of tongues and many more that encompass that gambit. All given talent praise and Thank God for giving it you. We live this world itching for answers, trying to complain what is my purpose. When God tells you to pick up your mat and go. It is time to do the work of the Lord and the Great commission. GOD ‘s prupose for you goes hand and hand with the Great commission. But, you have continuously abide in HIM and wear your armor. The Word is sharper then a two edge sword it cuts bone and marrow to transcend through you.(Hebrews 4:12). I am turning 40 next year and it feels as though I am finally found. After 5 years of being in the Faith. For so long, I have been a dependent, a disaster, a meance to myself because I trusted in man. I let my feelings control me, I let them completely obliteratee into a shrunken space. And then came JESUS. HE destroyed every disgusting dark space in me. It was the most hard for my flesh but the Holy Spirit had to make way. What have you done for the kingdom lately? Pick up your cross and go. Evangelise to your friend, neighbor, streets, stranger. The greatest treasure is to be shared by everyone. My painting aspect is because of GOD. The prayer warrior on me is because of GOD. My Jesus can do everything. If you need any prayer let me know in the comment section. Please support my Etsy Rain4yh.
Have you ever entered a Renaissance phase in your life? Mine is right now thanks to my Jesus. I am grateful that I still have hobbies, still have friends who care about me, and the love of my family. I am rich beyond all means.I hope one day you say thank you Lord I know that was you many times over. I hope you can experience the Lord’s love over and over again. I hope all your sorrows, past, can just be that, the past. Jesus Christ can do all these things. Please if you have not searched for my Etsy account please do. It is Rain4yh. GOD bless. The picture above is my recent painting. Next I will paint a sunset version.
I am on Etsy as a seller. I know, I know everyone does it. I take great respect for my art and what I put into it. Besides my writing, to paint is to take stress off. If you are curious or want to support please follow me at Rain4yh. Another part of my journey that is coming to fruition thanks to GOD. Thank you Jesus and to my tech husband who does it all. Sincerely, Rain.
I love hearing rain in my window Payne it relaxes me right away. It also reminds me of being cleansed in rain and when you get baptized. The Bible says we will have flowing waters from us when we receive the Holy Spirit. I’m paraphrasing of course John 7:38. I also have good memories in rain. I remember one day at Walt Disney World when it thunderstorm and got on Splash mountain I did not care I was having fun. Or when you cuddle with your significant other and enjoy hot tea. How it trickles down the window Payne also. Reminds me of how God hears our tears because he does see our pain. I wish people everywhere will know of Jesus. HIS love is immense and vast it will not ever run out. It is so soothing. I hope you find Jesus Christ soon. May you live a life worthy for HIM to come back .
I can say now I’m in God’s will not under my own. I was such a miserable person not living a Christ centered life. I was caught under darkness and whenever things did not go as I planned I would let my whole life crumble. I did not have support, the unconditional love of Jesus Christ or the friends that have the same mentality as me. I signed up today to get involved more with my church and to go on Missions. I use to be so afraid of roadblocks, of pain, but now I know God transforms it. I have to keep on praying, keep on this path. I want nothing to be in the Lord’s presence. I don’t ever want to go back to when I was dead with sin. I felt I was going nowhere. I owe it to myself and to my son to live happy lives. Even though death, jealousy, sexual immorality, even friendships are going to turn on you it’s biblical. Have to stay firm in the Word only thing that can keep you steady. Satan will always try to derail. But when you have God’s purpose you will arrive to your destiny. It is a guaranteed. Hebrews, Corinthians, Romans, Jude, Revelation amongst my favorites. So to my first mission wherever the Lord sends me. Even if it comes a little later at least I’m in the right path. Get your life right with Jesus weather you will read the Bible, get baptized
JESUS is coming means no more suffering, no more, no more heart take, and no more death. Are you not elated?
To go to the father’s arms and to be carried by him. At last to be in his presence bowing to him and saying thank you God. Thank you my Lord. Please give Jesus a chance. Eternal life is waiting.
I have to say going through this ordeal made me feel I still one thing unresolved in my life. I have to say I have met a lot of great people and others that did not stick around. Lessons sometimes I wish I did not have and some taught me to be a better human being. If you have not yet made a plan to execute once you are gone; at least have one in your head. Apologize, make amends, and if you have to build bridges again. Serving for the Lord, and doing Works for the Lord all comes full circle. I rather go to heaven then to be in hell repeatedly destroying the soul into shreds everyday. I want at least a legacy behind for my son. Make the people and the world around unforgettable. For those who love you treasure them. People need Jesus now more then ever. I want my last breath to be with the Lord. The testimonies I have heard, the friends the Lord has given me, and the son I’m so grateful to have. Give your life to Jesus now. Famine is coming, learn how to garden, learn how to fast. Be in peace. Stay in Jesus.
bririas 